Mutež
Poludit ću. Izluđuje me ta neka situacija u kojoj moram izabrati između dvije vatre. Iako ide sve više-manje po planu, čini mi se (kao i uvijek) da mi se nešto radi iza leđa. Svi nešto pričaju, svako svoje, svi su puni nekih savjeta, a ništa konkretno. Ne kužm šta se dešava. Sve nešto moram čitati između redaka, a to mi nikad nije išlo. Čitam i mutno je, sve se to nešto prelijeva i može se protumačiti na razne načine. Dajte mi recite šta da radim, šta imate samnom u planu, da znam! Ako ćete me ztaposliti, zaposlite, ako nećete, recite da nećete i ćao. Ako mi pak možete dati posao samo na par mjeseci, recite tako. Ako imate velike planove za mene, recite i to. Sva mi se nešto čini da mi slažu situacije tako da sama odustanem. Jer uvijek će mi moći naći ili složiti tako da bude loše. Isto kao što te ispitu može uvijek pitati nešto što ne znaš. Čini mi se kao da mi stalno postavljaju neke testove, koje ja stalno prolazim. Sve trpim i šutim i gutam govna nadajući se da će mi biti bolje.
Sada trenutno namjeravam zadržati taj posao (koji mi se pred mjesec dana otvoreno nudio, a sad je nastala ta mutež), a paralelno ću pitati na drugom mjestu da odradim staž. Ako me uzmu znači da ću raditi dva posla istovremeno. Bit će teško, ali moram to odguliti ako želim i ovce i novce (skoro pa doslovno). Idem glavom kroz zid pa ćemo vidjeti...
Držite fige...
Nisi me htio oženiti
Sanjala sam da nam je dan vjenčanja. Vozili smo se u nekom velikom autu. Ja sam bila u crnini. M. mi je bila kuma. Tebi je B. bio kum. Kad smo stigli na odredište ti si bio razrok od pijanstva. Imao si dvojbe oko vjenčanja. Na kraju si otišao s B. nekamo razgovarati.
Nisi me htio oženiti.
San 17,7.06
Idem doma odnekud. Prelazim preko Krimeje, kuda prolazi neki plavi auto iz kojeg se dere DM: "Rush" na sav glas. Odzvanja cijela Krimeja, ja pjevam i plešem do doma. Ispred zgrade je pod nekim autom pas koji me pozdravlja. On izlazi i dolazi do mene. Jako je pametan, zna sjesti. Bijeli je, u tipu ptičara, sa žutim i crnim oznakama. Odjednom je samnom Majči. Odnekud se stvori žena koja nosi lančanu lajnu i objašnjava da ga je negdje našla i da ga je mislila ostaviti pred ovom zgradom. Ja odlučim da ću ga uzeti doma i pokušati udomiti. U portunu i liftu skužim da pas zna još neke naredbe. Na mojm ulaznim vratima piše čudnim rukopisom: "Nemoj doći kasno". Zaključujem da netko nema ključ (?!), ulazim u kuću. Nitko ne komentira psa.
Budim se. U polusnu zaključujem da ću ga zvati Pas.
Natuknice
-nisam baš jako dobra sa rečenicama, profesore
-natuknice ->puno bolje
-u natuknicama
-mislim
-pričam
-pišem
-učim
-govorim
-živim
=> zato, molim Vas, uzmite u obzir moje mucanje - ne idu mi teške riječi
-probajte povezati..
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Šta mi je? Ništa mi nije. Samo mi se ponekad čini da me više ne voliš, a da ni sam toga nisi svjestan. To mi ne pomaže da izađem iz svoga bunara. Dapače, sve je dublji.
Nemoj mi dozvoliti da se povučem u sebe. Tko će me onda dohvatiti?
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Interesantno je to kako se ne mogu ljutiti na tebe. Štogod rekao ili napravio, koliko god ljuda i bijesna bila, sve prođe kada ti čujem glas.
Svakog dana se iznova zaljubim. Tamo negdje između dvanaest i jedan.
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Mislim da bi te mogla prestati voljeti
Skupi prste da ti pijesak ne iscuri
On Škorpion, ona Jarac
Look at the eyes. They can be green, blue, brown or black, but they'll be piercing with hypnotic intensity. Most people feel nervous and ill at ease under Scorpio's steady gaze. You'll have to break the spell and look away first. He'll outstare you every time. It's a foolproof identification of the Pluto personality. Scorpio eyes bore deeply into you, mercilessly, as if they're penetrating your very soul. They are.
Remark to a Scorpio that he has a great talent which will someday be recognized, and he smoothly, casually replies, "Yes. I know." Ask him if he'll do you a favor, and (he answer will be equally simple. "Yes, of course I will," or "No, I can't do that."
If you're sensitive, don't ask his opinion or advice. You'll get the naked, brutal truth. You asked him, hell tell you. Scorpio will not pay a false compliment to gain a point or win an ally. It's beneath him to flatter. When he says something nice to you, treasure it. You can be sure it's sincere and unvarnished. If he says you have a good voice, stop singing in the shower and grab a microphone. If he says you have a great voice, you can safely audition for the Met.
He may even effortlessly move a few mountains out of your way to help you along. Don't believe everything you hear about Scorpio selfishness. Instead, listen to some of the grateful people who have been on the receiving end of his wise counsel and generosity.
Scorpio naturally attracts either fiercely loyal and dedicated admirers, or envious and spiteful enemies. But even the latter give him grudging respect, and you'll notice they're careful not to challenge him openly. The examples of the few who did are vivid and painful reminders that caution is required in an attack against Scorpio and his planet, Pluto. Remember that Pluto rules nuclear power.
Normally, Scorpio will surround himself with luxury. He'll lean toward excesses in food, drugs, drink, and yes-in love. Most assuredly in love. He's geared for it, with confidence. Romance will never frighten him, puzzle him, or catch him unaware. It's been on his mind ever since he rode his first bicycle. Maybe even his first tricycle. Of course, you could conceivably know a Scorpio who is so absolutely innocent-looking, with such disarming, youthful charm and lack of obvious seductive mannerisms, he's convinced you that passion is over-rated in Pluto males. He may even have freckles, and a whole drawer full of Boy Scout merit badges. But ask his wife. Try something like, "Say, Bertha-or Rosalie-or Sheila-or whatever-is your husband, well, is he passionate?" She might summon enough dignity to tell you it's none of your business, but your answer will most likely be hysterical laughter. Between her peals of mirth, she'll be remembering many days of his intense, passionate declarations about air pollution, housebreaking the dog, narcotics, long hair, birth control, and many nights of ... well, and many nights. This will be true even if her husband looks like Huckleberry Finn, and doesn't even remotely resemble King Kong.
He can be cruel sometimes, for his own, unfathomable reasons, and he may even exhibit a sadistic sense of wit by describing you as fat, dumpy, shrewish and square in front of friends. It's his private joke. Grin, if it kills you. You've been warned that Scorpio is compelled to conceal his motives, and this tendency isn't watered down in love. It may even be intensified. He's not about to display his true emotions in front of the world like a vulnerable, smitten schoolboy. Later, when you're alone, he'll tell you what he really thinks
Capricoms can be stocky and muscular, thin and wiry or plump and soft. But no matter how the body is shaped, the goat will give the impression of being rooted to the spot, until he decides to move to another spot. Generally, Satum people have straight, lank, dark hair, dark, steady eyes, and swarthy olive or tan complexions.
There's always a faint aura of melancholy and seriousness surrounding the Saturn personality. None of them completely escape the Saturnine influence of stem discipline and self-denial.
Any man who's involved in a relationship with the female goat should learn a basic fact about this Sun sign. She seems to be more even-tempered and emotionally steady than she actually is. Her manner may convince you that she's as firm as a rock and nothing can ruffle her calm surface. The truth is that she's subject to many moods. All women are subject to moods, you say, but the Capricorn girl can have some really black and long-lasting ones. If she feels mistreated or unappreciated, she'll brood for days, weeks, even months. She calls it being sensible or practical, but Saturnine gloominess, pessimism and depression are much more deeply rooted than that. They're triggered by fear of the future, worry about the present, shame over the past-or a suspicion that she's being made fun of or is inadequate in some way. These women do not accept teasing lightly. Keep it at a minimum. To be honest, they find it impossible to see the joke when they're the victims. You don't have to bury her in compliments constantly (she'll sense when they're insincere, anyway), but don't kid her about important matters, and praise her often enough to make her realize you know her true value
It's hard for her to relax in romantic situations. There's plenty of physical desire under the cool Capricorn surface, far more than most people suspect, and it's never satisfied casually. Sitting around and wasting time with breathless hugs and ecstatic kisses while the future is still hanging unsettled is definitely not her favorite hobby-yet once she's decided you're the right man and the finances are secure or your ambition is sufficient, shell be as warm as a cuddly panda, affectionate, and even passionate.
http://mizian.com.ne.kr/englishwiz/library/names/zodiac/contents.htm
